Where is the life we have lost in living?

Monday, February 15, 2010

Rock For Light


Bad Brains-Big Take Over
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Despite its unorthodox speed-meets-weed compositions, the self-titled cassette [Banned in DC] was essentially a sonic pamphlet for the group's increasingly extensive PMA philosophy."We're the thinking man's punk, so we know our message is that of peace and love and Positive Mental Attitude. That's what we really stood and stand for. In music, we have a background of progression. When I imagine a riff, it's like a big wall falling down. If I pick up my guitar and I say to myself, 'You sellout,' then I say, 'All right, watch this- this is a song about sellouts.' And from there, my imagination will let me create, from my musical experiences, what a sellout introduction riff is going to be. I guess that's a blessing that I have, and me and Doc and Earl and all of us together, that we're able to do this.
The next key is keeping at it.

That's when you advance.
That's when you progress in anything.'"
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The surprisingly far reaching influence of American Psycho
The music instinct
China to take over the world? Not so fast
Get off the internet

Thursday, February 11, 2010

On The Contrary


   Western played Houston at home the other night and it was a wrestling match in every aspect until the end, when it suddenly turned political in a moment of moral vulgarity. The snow started falling in droves right as the sun set and the whole town immediately iced over. Walking to the game, you could slide threefold for every step taken. My buddy Joe and I showed up at halftime to avoid a fee and we parked ourselves in the middle of the arena. Western games are well attended by the community, which is funny because the community is mostly elderly in age, but hardly in spirit. The black Cadillacs and Lincoln towncars with the white leather seats were hardly deterred by the weather, like most of the demographic would be, thanks to tire chains and the twenty minute pre heat of the car after dinner. The arena was lively inside. I had no idea it was white out night either. The game was tied at 42 at the half and the grudge match continued when the clock started back up. I settled down and tuned in to make sense of the happenings. Houston has a guard that's currently the nation's leading scorer at nearly 25 points a game and he was Zen with the ball in his hand. Slow motion, in complete control, not expending more energy than called for, enlightened, blessed with the inward eye, he commandeered every aspect of the dharma's hoops spectrum. He could create his own shot with ease and take it strong to the basket, with a momentum that couldn't be stopped simply by a much larger center's presence in the paint. Probably won't make it to the NBA because he's undersized by NBA standards, but the guy still played with his heart on his sleeve and had nothing to lose-everything to gain. Houston was big and they flexed it mightily and Western is skinny and they took it gruesomely. By neither luck nor fate, Western still was still in the game because Houston couldn't play team defense. They swarmed the ball like mad but completely fall apart after a dribble penetration. And that's exactly what AJ Slaughter does so well. And with Anthony Sally, the senior point guard most responsible for Western's offensive woes this season, out of the game, Slaughter touched the ball every possession and made the offense happen. It's relevant to mention that the referees had been calling a whole lotta fouls all night long. No one important was out of the game, but there were three keen sets of eyes acutely tuned to the action happening and nothing was slipping past them. Holding fouls off the ball , three second violations, a broken rule was not to be missed. The combined factors mentioned above set the tone for the end of the game.

   The end came down to the wire. With under a minute left, a prayer of a three pointer and a steal at midcourt tied the game up at 72 and Houston's main man hustled the ball down the court with 20 seconds remaining and the shot clock off. Everyone in the gym was on their feet, hollering. The guy dribbled near the halfcourt line. Slaughter was guarding him. All the Houston players were on the low block or the deep corners, spreading the defense out as far as possible. He finally made his move with 8 seconds left, feigning right but crossing left to find an angle. There wasn't any. He pulled up in front of his bench and shoot a off balance 23 foot shot that would have been a terrible look for anyone else but him. It looked good but for but a moment. It bounced high and came off hard near the free throw line, where it was scooped out of the scrum by Houston, who dribbled once and forced up a floater. That's when the whistle blew. More than one. I saw the the black ref near the scorer's table signaling that it was an On The Ball call, nonshooting violation which would have given Houston the ball near the halfcourt line with 0.02 on the clock. Pretty much game over. But that didn't happen. When he called the foul and signaled for it, he was facing the other refs with his back to the Western bench. The Western bench was heated. The coach was far on the court with a water bottle in his hand. He obviously thought they called a shooting foul. So did the rest of the gym. In slow motion, the black ref turned to the scorer's table to call the foul and that's when Western's coach threw his water bottle back at the bench in anger....
    Stop. Let's consider the powers at be, here in this matter. Western's coach is in his second year and has struggled more than expected this year. They are 19-14 with a younger team, who's captains are juniors and seniors looking to step out of the shadow of success set by their previous teams and finally make a name for themselves. They have won big this year, beating a solid Vandy team in Nashville and lost dumbly, mainly at home vs MTSU, which hasn't happened in over 20 years. Western really needed a home win. For morale, confidence, help the coach's job, help keep spirit up on Bowling Green, the list goes on. More benefit would have been found in a win than in learning to cope with a loss. A loss would have dug the hole exponentially deeper. A dirty loss, at home, would be a twisted, cruel insult to an undeserved injury.....

    ....at the bench in anger, which was immediately spotted by Eagle Eye calling the foul, who didn't hesitate to T the man up. 0.02 second left, technical foul, two free throws, game over. You just gave the game away. The players' effort were essentially rendered nill, as they didn't decide the outcome of the game. I was already in overdrive thinking of that call's ramifications, when the notion of survival instinctively took over. Folks were livid. Old men were letting the finger fly. Their wives furiously waved their jackets at the man. I passed a cute mom, short and blonde maybe forty, with kids no doubt packs lunches before she runs, probably teaches Sunday School-looking Mom yell "Mother FUCKING SHIT" at the top of lungs. That tore me up a little bit. Meanwhile, Joe was loving the violence that was on the cusp of happening. State troopers lumbered onto the court in front of the student section, naturally the most temperamental party represented. The PA system was reminding folks that THROWING THINGS ONTO THE COURT IS NOT ALLOWED. The air was think from fumes of anger. Bad vibes abounded so we split. 


   What can be learned from this episode? One might say,"Yeah but that referee was only doing his job. How can you fault him for that?" The fact that the referee did exactly what he was suppose to do is the heart of the problem. How can his decision to follow orders, call the foul, and give the game to the other team be seen as the moral thing to do in that situation? Would he have made the same decision if he would have been aware of all the variables at work? His perspective was strictly limited to the black and white scope of thinking. Thrown water bottle = technical. One plus one will always equal two. For some people the world is always Either Or, never Both And, especially considering morality. I believe the moral worth of an action is determined by its outcome and that referee should have let the game play out in overtime. Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to justify anything in particular here. But that game is a fantastic example showing how breaking a rule or not following a direction sometimes is the moral act to do. And that's if it contributes to the greater good of the world and the overall harmony of mankind. The players should have been the outcome's deciding factor. Who knows what though? That night, half the crowd wanted justice and the other half wanted blood, everyone wanted a direction to point their whole lot of frustrations in and no one really knew what was going on. Joe and I left in a flash on to more important matters to deal with, happy with not knowing the little details of the matter. What we did have though was a pretty good idea. 

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Original text on the back of the post card....
1940 Supercharged Duesenberg
This $21,000.00 black beauty has a special custom body designed for himself by a German artist, Rudolph Bauer. 8 cylinders, in line, 320 HP! 104 MPH in second gear—129 MPH in high!

Whoa

Thursday, February 4, 2010

But Have You Seen My Records


It would be easy enough for me to hire somebody to write "The Ballad of Shosanna" (the heroine of "Inglourious Basterds") if I wanted to, but I don't want my choices to hit the nail on the head. I want them to be glancing blows. The second-generation quality about it makes it more resonant. You're watching that scene and you're hearing the lyrics and you're actually surprised at how appropriate they are to her story. In its own way, I think that makes it play even more like interior monologue. I (played) it on set when we (filmed) it. That's always really cool to do -- you can't do it all the time, because you're probably recording sound at least half the time -- but what's really fun when you do it is, not only do the actors respond to it, the whole crew responds to it. It's like they're watching the movie as we're making it. When you actually play the soundtrack and you can sync something up, the crew gets a glimpse of what the movie is going to be like, and it just thrills them.
-Quentin Tarantino (here)

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Someday


1939 Rolls Royce Phantom
Incentive

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Love This


from DP on Vimeo. Gotta love Kid Cudi

Monday, January 25, 2010

What Does Your Soul Look Like


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Back again. With the school machine slowly cranking up again, the windows of opportunity to keep things colourful slowly get smaller. The day's standardized actions numbs away at the imagination. Today was still the very first day and yet there I was, all folded up in a desk with eighty sleepy folks in a less stimulated but still very listless, thinking about the days when I stood up for myself and what I believed in. Life does move faster everywhere else but here, in all the gorgeous tropical adventure zones my gal Rachel is about to find herself in. Yeah, I'm living vicariously in southeast Asia for a little while, but without losing  heart up here in the not heartless or doomed Bowling Green, which really isn't deserving of any mean words. My guns are only pointed towards the classroom, certainly not college at all. It's just hard to see the big picture unfold and its not wise to admit, but it does seem like there really is no plan to it all. Like it's 27th inning feeling of what the fuck am I doing here? But putting aside instant gratification for the sake of future gain is the trait that separates us from the beasts. Rationality. One can't rationalize everything though, because then there is no room for mystery, love, grace, and everything that lacks a simple explanation. Any venture taken towards those unknowns is a true learning experience. You always learn something. You can't learn less. In a classroom, sure the mind connects dots and make sense of the material being presented. But true learning and higher education happens on a much more interactive level. It's a very personal experience, getting out and taking risks with heavy consequences on the line. If learning is the ultimate goal though, failure is never a possibility. You can't ever learn less. Something is to be taught in the lowest of falls, which makes it ultimately worth the risk of being vulnerable and seeing yourself at the most honest state. What do your soul look like? Worth a shot get off the internet make it happen go live life and trust the process. As for journeys in the deep and matters of trust, check out this soulful edit from the early house giant Romanthony. Too solid.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Love You In The New Year (Reflection)

Back from the dead. Happy 2010. Here at the castle, we live with a mighty spirit of hope and anticipation in regards to the new year. We're blessed with the chance to be able to share bits of good tidings to the kind folks looking in, the kindred spirits that congregate here who know much more than we do. Our hope is that Feel Good Lost continues to be a place where thoughts, ideas, resources, reflections, vibes, rambles, inspiration, cares, visions, dreams, and revelations are tossed around, little minutes of your time that act to set in motion and promote the harmony of the common good. Thank anyone and everyone that's sent me a line, commented, showed me a fantastic new something online, or talked about this here site with me. Mail from random strangers makes my day and I love conversation. Let's get in a groove for 2010, kick out the jams in epically reckless abandon, rise above and kill it. However, 2009 was full of joy and if anything, epic. To reflect....


























Saturday, December 19, 2009

All Gone







Hiatus is over, exams are through, and here now is the room to celebrate. Don't sit still too much over Christmas or you'll get swept overboard by the dizzy waves of sentiment that abound in December. I'm the Grinch though, fuck what you heard.

Monocle's Top 25 for Travel.
Yale said yes, four times for one family.
Is geography the new history?
Gawker.tv's fantastic end of the year video list

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Someday


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Exams are a crush and the wind is bitter cold outside, even though it looks warm looking out the window. To sit still and study the one single thing on the desk in front of me goes completely against my human nature, which explains why studying equates out to be combat, real time combat like a titantic wrestling match between twin giants, with my soul at stake. Anyways, it's soul sucking to sit still and study for so long and when it's all over, I feel like I've just been gruelly interrogated. But what's worth that awful feeeeeeling is the incentive. It wouldn't even be bothered with if it wasn't worth it.

In the Wall Street Journal today, they ask this author of a new biography on Winston Churchill a few questions. I forget the guy's name, but he's an older british gentleman that is said to have written the smartest, concise biography of the man in only 196 pages, which says something. Apparently, this guy met Churchill when he was twelve or something and asked him, "What do you attribute to your success over the years?" Churchill looked at him and said "Economy of Effort. Never stand up when you can sit down and never sit down when you can sleep." To note as well, Churchill's father died at the age of 45, which lead Churchill to believe that since he too would die at a young age, he'd better get going on making his mark in the world. Three years later, he lead his regiment's polo team to three straight tournament victories while deployed in India. Four years later, while on a scouting expedition in South Africa during the Boer War, Churchill was captured by enemy troops and sent to a POW camp, only to later escape and travel through nearly 300 miles of enemy territory to safety.

I can't wait for Christmaspen. Also, my house someday will look like that there picture up above. You heard it here first.

Where You Want To Be





Early morning on the Amazon

Monday, December 7, 2009

Beauty



Only As Deep As I Look Can I See













Saturday, December 5, 2009

Roll Tide



I mean, I can't hate anyone in the SEC, not even Florida. They don't look good in white and they haven't lost a game since September of last year. It is only natural to loathe who's on top (ie Harvard, Duke basketball, Washington DC) but as history goes, nothing gold can stay. As much as I hate houndstooth beer mugs and all the talk about "Bear and the good ole days", Alabama is going to win this game. If both teams do their job, it will be a grudge match of a great game and the first conference title game to match undefeated teams together. Plus, you've got the two best defenses in the nation. The matchup will also dictate the first time a team in the Top 3 will lose since early September. 
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Alabama's out for blood from last year's title game and is rolling off an incredible game against Auburn in the Iron Bowl. I still can't hate Florida though, even the UT in me. Florida is faster than fast. Tebow will be facing a defense determined to stop his run and he'll be forced the throw the ball. Florida will still dominate the short third downs and play strong football, even if its a bit one dimensional. Strong football isn't desperate football though, and if they find themselves in a jam, they'll have to gamble and they haven't had to do that in a long while. On offense, Alabama's got a host of backs that could start just about anywhere and they'll run to high heaven. They'll pull everything out to combat Florida's fantastic defense. The secret weapon is Bama's tight end who they've used to mix up their offensive scheming all season. But who knows? That's the best part about it. It's the SEC. Ingram for Heisman. Roll Tide. 

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Cudoki


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Steve Aoki just remixed Kid Cudi's Pursuit of Happiness and it's a sound that can only come from a place we can't see. Somewhere on the most E soaked cloud of your imagination, you can't lose and it's lush. You just ran a kickoff back for a touchdown and it was nothing more than an obstacle course, coming at you in slow motion. Ease in high definition. Only you know it though. The Superdome is absolutely losing it, noise is deafening, and beach balls are dropping by the thousands from the ceiling to commence the end of the game and the beginning of a night that will take no prisoners, with a day at the beach come morning. There is no time for sleep. This song makes me want to go knock all these book shelves over because they're not moving or dancing. Nobody in here is doing anything besides studying, thinking and that would just fuck everyone else's studies up, plus the mousey looking girl probably named Dorothy shelving the fucking world behind me would do the right thing and pull the fire alarm, throwing us all outside to face the fucking elements. Nah, I'm happy rightcher feigning my studies to look up giant snakes in the Amazon but mostly mining energy off thoughts of better places in the world and this fucking triumphant astral space rave of a song.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

No Worries


“It is easy to be heavy: hard to be light.” G. K. Chesterton
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When life gets chaotic, its only natural to crave order. Hard times can suppress a good man's common sense and in desperate moments, people will turn to anything in search of meaning and purpose. It was during the last Great Depression that horoscopes in newspapers and tarot cards exploded into the mainstream. As the financial world continues its crumbling and the weather gets gloomier, our search for order should be towards the tangible rather than the obtuse, especially now since school stress is on the upwards. Things aren't ever as bad as they seem.
Have Mercy on yourself, you're beautiful.
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The Strokes- Mercy Mercy Me

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Almost


Are you happy yet?

Monday, November 30, 2009

Monday Blues



Brian Eno writes about the death of uncool.
The Guardian's Albums of the Decade is worth agreeing with.
How did Tiger Woods spend his Thanksgiving?

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Happy Thanksgiving

Let us rise up and be thankful, for if we didn't learn a lot today, at least we learned a little, and if we didn't learn a little, at least we didn't get sick, and if we got sick, at least we didn't die; so, let us all be thankful.

-Buddha


Friday, November 20, 2009

Mornings

A bunch of folks crashed at a friend's house in Nashville after Deadmau5 last night and I woke up today with my jeans on. Mornings when the sun wakes you up are always best because they aren't rude, unless you're camping. The best is waking up laughing. I'm sprawled out in a chair this morning, wrapped up in a Native American blanket looking picnic spread thing I wound up with last night, sitting by a window and my buddy Joe tells this story. A bunch of friends were sprawled out in the grass, watching the sun set in Central Park one evening. It's the weekend of some festival and music is sounded not too far away. Folks are milling around the park in high spirits and the friends lounging in this particular group are rolling hard and gloriously fucked up. This gal in the group recently got a cute little puppy, well trained and purebred but still goofy like all little dogs are and it's bounding around the group, chasing grapes and loving on everyone. But pretty soon it takes off after a squirrel. In the spirit of the day, this guy scrambles up and runs after it in goofy fashion. He's a pretty big guy and he's running after it down a hill, bend over a bit with his hands out, calling it in his little doggie voice. But he suddenly trips and falls on top of the cute little puppy. The dog convulses and dies. The guy then picks up the dog BY THE TAIL, walks it back to the group, and lays it on the ground by the girl who just got it, who see's the dog and immediately starts throwing up, everywhere. The group flat out loses itself. Everyone's fucked up and the sudden surge of death & bad energy immediately stampedes the good feels of the day and everyone flips out. Tears, spills, stains, yelling and mad chaos ensue. The girl is still throwing up and her dead dog is laying next to her, with the guy hunched on all four, crying his eyes out.
Everyone else rolls away from the picnic, unable to bear what's happening.
Joe takes his shirt off and ties it around his eyes, to blind himself from seeing anything else.
I laughed so hard, I don't even need to run today.

Monday, November 16, 2009

Mao


The funny thing about this is that, in China, this a good thing. Mao is kitschy and cool, in ironic fashion. Of course, some folks in the United States will eat this up, declaring to the heavens the woes and rot that are sure to befall our blessed nation thanks to the Obama administration are not unlike the atrocities that befall the East under Mao Tse-Tung. Mao was a monster but his likeness has aged into a different set of imagery, which won't be understood by the right wangers who think the word "kitschy" is Hebrew or something.

Not two days after Obama dared to speak about free markets and an open internet in Beijing, the government locks down a nationwide ban against the sale of Maobama shirts. This begs the question, how long before the same thing happens here?

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Great Men

Richard Francis Burton

"Of the gladdest moments in human life, methinks is the departure upon a distant journey to unknown lands. Shaking off with one mighty effort the fetters of habit, the leaden weight of Routine, the cloak of many Cares and the Slavery of Home, man feels once more happy. The blood flows with the fast circulation of childhood….afresh dawns the morn of life…”
Journal entry from Zanzibar, 1856

Friday, November 13, 2009

Caves

I went golfing the other day for the first time ever and the best part of the day had nothing to do with me golfing, but rather caves. My friend showed me this cave entrance (!) off the ways a little bit, back in the woods. I could have crawled through the entrance. Kentucky apparently has the largest cave system in the world. That's crazy. Caves are older than forever as well, who's to say What in the world is in these caves? King Juba's treasure? Farmer's gold? God I'm suppose to be writing a paper and just can't write academically right now. Let's get lost.

This song will fuck with your head, it's not even a great song, Its just all lazers and they trance around while you have the time of your life chasing down a fucking beachball in Ibiza.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Don't Worry

Action as we are using the work does not mean activism, busyness, or do-goodism. Action does mean a decisive commitment toward involvement and engagement in the social order. Issues will not be resolved by mere reflection, discussion or even prayer. God works together with all those who love (Romans 8:28). By contemplation, we mean the deliberate seeking of God through a willingness to detach from the passing self, the tyranny of emotions, and the addiction to self-image and the false promises of this world.

Contemplation is the Divine therapy and the perennial clearinghouse for the soul. It is important that we continue to clarify and hold to these two pivots of our lives. Rightly sought, action and contemplation will always regulate, balance and convert one another. Separately, they are dead-ended and trapped in personality. The clear goal of our center is to meet people where they are and help them trust where they are not.
-Richard Rohr, Radical Grace

Sunday, November 8, 2009

White People

The routines of tourism are even more monotonous than those of daily life.

-Mason Cooley-

Big Plans

Time is nature's way of keeping everything from happening at once.
-Albert Einstein-

There is not a natural sense of urgency here in Bowling Green, so I'm a bit out of place sometimes with my dashing around. Maybe it's just the small town comfortable feel to things here. Not pressed for time, no rush, doesn't take long to get here or there, folks waving from their front porch. The police here are at a loss too because nothing obviously felonious going on, which is why they make everything they call out a grand fucking spectacle. But whatever. There's a breeze when you're walking, but it's hot when propped up in the sun, like Southern California. It's easy going here, which is can be for better or for worst. I mean, it's gorgeous outside and I love taking my time, but behind every minute of every day anywhere is a pressing urgency. Not a big deal or anything, but there isn't a moment to lose during the day.
If things are too comfortable, time wastes away.

Some people become more aware of this phenomena in times of struggle or weak moments where the odds aren't stacked in favour. Time suddenly becomes of the essence when two papers are due and a test is coming up, or when you're lining up out of the shotgun on third & eight in the fourth quarter. Those seconds are always longer than others, while a weekend with friends flies by, which just proves its relative nature. Time was considered to be absolute and to flow equably for all observers until Einstein came along and suggested that "distances appear compressed and time intervals appear lengthened for events associated with objects in motion relative to an inertial (still) observer."
So what?

Time will seem like more, in a sense, for the person who keeps moving. By learning to live at peace with natural speed of life, the ebb and flow of the actions and interactions of everyday won't seem so drastic when the pressure's on and things get difficult. Everything won't seem so hasty and stressed in a way. Situations will get their deserving amount of attention paid and the big picture won't be lost amongst little pressing needs that are eventually unnecessary, like messed up food orders, dramatics, jealousy, lost sunglasses, forgetting books for class. All those things can be solved by taking a deep breath and widening the moment's lense a little bit.

This is something strange but it has been in mind recently, in thinking about future endeavors, opportunities, and pursuits. I question the legitimacy or purpose of being here in school, in class sitting, listening, and fidgeting. I feel like a more pro-active approach must be taken towards making things happen. School does enable one to go further towards achieving a certain set of goals in life like the ones I've drafted up, so I'm learning to trust the process and be cool with the pace of the moment, while not letting my mind wander toward the ridiculous What If's the imagination thinks up.
It's a whole lotta at once, but it is a good thing to do battle with every day.
Keep me on my toes.